Writer or Not….You Were Not Made to be Invisible

I blogged for years.  Anonymous. No name.  No blog tied to my Facebook.

Just words, bubbling forth. Deep from the soul.  Uncoated.  Untamed.  Fearless. Real.

And now, there is a name, Jen Avellaneda.  The name I’d always hidden from.  Run from. Unowned, because I never wanted to be seen or known….by anyone…

Let alone the millions on the world wide web.

And yet, it was when a close friend found me. When little by little, people close to me began opening up these words scratched fast from the core of my being…

I hide from my writer’s mind.  Put up a shield, started to dumb down my thoughts, and quickly turned to be what others expected of me…

Instead of being me.

Can you relate?  Please tell me, “yes”…the urge to please, to be all that you have been asked to be tugs at your heart too sometimes. 

And yet, as I molded, formed, softened, and curled up in the home of what others said I, “should be”…I lost my voice.  The power to tap into my feelings, pour out in words this authenticity inside me…

Being real in a way that heals the wounded soul.

For a writer mind is different, not like the rest of the world.  Where others separate thinking and feeling…a writer’s mind is like a ball of colored thread all intertwined….thoughts, feelings, ideas, passions, intellectualisms….

And the more we hide, the more we keep that tape of doubt over the mouths of our voices…the more we start to die…little by little…one thought at a time.

See, writing deciphers thoughts and reality, hope and concern, faith and insecurities.  Writing is more than our words, but our eyes that see who we are.  It’s the step we move forward from, one word at a time….

And there are those that say, “do”, “be”, “go”….but a writer knows, we must see with the vision the Lord has given us first. Then, through those words, we can move forward…

And, aren’t we all just tired of empty religion, noisy chatter, scattered business….words typed for fame, without any heart or passion behind them?

And don’t we all want faith.  Faith that not only says…but does.  Faith that moves forward….faith that truly loves?

And I have hidden that kind of faith, lately.  Bold faith.  In your face, fearlessly un-doubting faith. 
Faith that doesn’t apologize or hold back.  Faith that changes lives…

Because in this world we live in we will have trouble….but true faith, the action calling others forth from a true writer, will always change the world…

And I have learned in my quiet complacency…doubt has no sons or daughters.  Only gravestones to point at and take pictures of…

But, we are of a generation that doesn’t want to stand, staring at immoveable objects.  We won’t settle for people blabbing about “how to”, “when to” take real action…

We are a people that doesn’t hold back because we fear “man” sitting at the other end of the screen criticizing.  We don’t cower, withdraw, or question who we are because other people can see us.

Yes, we see….and we know…love has the power to change the world.

So, what is your voice today?  How has God called you to stand up, get out, and impact the world with the love of Jesus?

Have you been like me?  Apologizing?  Silencing your voice because you question your identity, or fear other people?

And though the enemy wants to keep you, closed up, locked up, trembling in fear, making you feel inadequate….

God has called you to rise!  Rise and serve those He loves.  Rise to be the wife, or mother, or friend others need in the world today.  He has called all of us to live fearlessly declaring His name….

Because it’s true, despite what others tell you….His people were each, given a new name.  A name and a face, and a place to live free as children of a God without shame…

What is your name today friend?  How can you use your place in this world to share His great and glorious name?

For regardless of what calamities strike the world, the doubt, or fear you might be feeling…one thing is guaranteed…. 

You were never made to be invisible.

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7 Comments

  1. Jen, as always, this is beautiful. Yes, I can so relate. And you ask many questions I need to ponder. But I know I want to “rise and serve those He loves.” But how? I so appreciate this reminder >>> “You were never made to be invisible.” I appreciate them for myself but also to reflect on how I go about my day when seeing others. Do I treat them as though they are invisible to me or do I choose to really see and love them? I am always blessed by what you share. xoxo

  2. Jen,
    I have to tell you that I had to read this slowly and absorb your words. I completely understand what you said, at one point I started to cry because what you are saying is how I have been feeling for years. I have been one of those writers who has been silenced for so long that I lost my voice along the way. I started blogging to please everyone else but myself, worst of all I wasn’t pleasing God at all in it all. I think it’s time we stand up and take a stand for our God and ourselves, write from our truest of hearts and share our words, boldly and confidently. If there are people out there who cannot deal with what we say than I guess they can go read what they want to read.
    Thank you for sharing this out in the open.
    With Christ’s Love
    Rachel
    http://www.vibrantcountrycottage.com

  3. Following from Friendship Friday at Create With Joy.

    I hear you loud and clear! I started out college in musical theatre. I wound up with a BS in Finance, because it was ‘more sensible’. Luckily, I figured out over the years that sitting in an office, wearing a suit, crossing t’s and dotting i’s was not where I was meant to make my contribution. I may never have my own reality tv show (ick), but I am happy.

    Wonderful post!

  4. I hear you Jen~! Loving your writing as much as I do….I feel a little sad that I haven’t read your earlier pieces..but gain richness of perspective from your evocative writing that delights me.
    I feel PROUD of you that you write openly as YOU now ๐Ÿ™‚
    Perhaps both of us began taking care of other people’s children silently, not looking for acclaim or recognition…but knowing all of Heaven sees and the great cloud of witnesses cheer us on.
    I feel very grateful indeed to have a computer and to be able to develop wonderful friendships online that bring such joy to my otherwise ‘alone” life.
    Your writing was one of my earliest blog subscriptions and I’m sure that was because God had a plan and purpose for us to encourage one another !
    God Bless you for putting your honest-to-God thoughts down and sending them ‘out there’ and leaving the outcomes to the one who adores you most, Abba Father.

  5. Yes we living very visible life todayand by faith to Christ and showing our faith in with a good deeds for love from God over us and be sowing ur seed in unvisible seed to grow visible seed in harvest in Jesus name ,thanks and bless,keijo sweden

  6. This right here was my biggest struggle when I heard the Lord say, “Write.” WHAT?! And let others see ME? No way, Lord. But the struggle continued until I was miserable…thank you for showing many to step out there. ♥

  7. Thank you for sharing this very important message with us at Friendship Friday, Jen.
    Your article spoke directly to my heart.

    I have always been a fan of your writing and your blog and I am thrilled to have the opportunity to introduce you to an even larger audience this week.

    Congratulations – you are our Blog/Friend of the Week at this week’s Friendship Friday Party (#130) which just went live !:-)

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