I struggle to figure Him out today. I want to come…with gifts…of wheat, or meat, or grain…or something. But He requires nothing. I want to share with Him, show Him all I am. But His demands of me? Only emptiness. I want to parade my talents, my strengths, my wisdom. But nothing I offer Him suffices. […]
Real in a Plastic World
“Be real, I hear Him say.” Yet, hiding for so long. Behind walls. Big green eyes. A smile. Social charms. Value as a parent. Wife. Everyone else’s …besides Gods. What does it even mean, “Be real”? Doesn’t life itself break down? Strip one of self? Fire of God burn away the dross? Yet, still, at […]
The Answer to Everything
Joy! The mark. Yet, so many…dying. Aren’t we alive? I hear their woos. Counsel. Encourage. But hearts grow faint…as Matthew said they would. Lives destroyed…by doubt, pain, job loss all around. There is hope! Hope! Isn’t it the mark we envelope? Hope in Him to save us…not ourselves. Hope of a Savior, who knows, who sees…who […]
Life in the Little Things
We spot him yesterday. Lost. Alone. Without mom…or home. Littlest furry fellow. Easily unseen. Laying estranged, in properties path. The lost one. Forgotten. Littlest unforgotten…easily missed. Gathering him in loving arms. To Nestle him. Comfort him. We also spot, a centipede. Pencil stroke long. Crawling across the sun dried ground. To some, invisible. To others […]
The Orphaned Among Us
Would I do it again? The question lingers… Take on an infant? A consuming, drug exposed, consequence of society. Government. Irresponsibility. Embrace the failings of a mothers choices. Hear the noise…of aches, pains, withdrawals…abandonment? Know…this child fights for hope. Struggling to breath. Seizures. Spasms. Difficulty eating. Comfort the lifeless limbs. Hold the tiny bones of a […]
Refuting Bitterness
I saw our son that left home again yesterday. Age two. Had him since birth. Running. Playing. Hugs eternal. A kiss. A smile. To get to look him in his eyes. An assurance from me, “I love you”. Bitterness shattered. Healing truth. His new mom. So sweet. Tender. Kind. Walks with Jesus in perfect time. Regrets, […]