On The Edge Of Faith. Afraid to Jump. Where Our Foster Daughter Finds Jesus.

She sits on the edge of diving.  Diving into a world foreign to what she knows.  She waits.  Hesitates.  Wants to know…. Is it real? Will this hurt me? Can I really be….something other than what I have been being? And I see the war.  So tangible. Waking me in sleeping hours, to help her fight […]

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When You Can’t Sleep. And Prayers Aren’t Enough.

A cock-a-doodle do reminds me that morning is coming. Sun peering over the horizon. Barely. And I cannot sleep. It’s my teen.  I worry.  And I think about her far too much. And to be honest.  It is tough.  Taking each child.  Each moment.  Each hour.  And trusting. Placing them carefully, wholeheartedly, intentionally…..in God’s hands. Yet, […]

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When Silence Speaks. And a nearly 100 yr old Aunt.

It’s been awhile.  But, then, it’s Mother’s Day.  And she has no children. I creep in.  Unnoticed.  Just a silhouette.  Me.  Her niece.  Forgotten a long time ago.  All because of Alzheimers. But, this time. So close to death. Her mis-wired head….leaves her with no words. And she is absolutely beautiful. And why is the silence…..most […]

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When You Think God’s Timing Stinks

I am in a season of waiting.  And waiting is not my strong suit.  Just the word “patience” makes me…..well……impatient. Especially when I see a tide of difficulty coming toward me and I cannot stop it. I mean, after all, who doesn’t want to act…..when life gets complicated and filled with obstacles needing plowed over…..by sheer […]

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God is Still Good!

God is still good….. When noise of pain echos in people’s ears…..and God speaks truth to try to draw them close to Him…but, they refuse to hear…. God is still good! When there is a typhoon on the very same island our son is now staying on… And we haven’t heard from him….. God is still […]

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Ponderings from the Pond: Faith

And I read this morning… Your faith must not be a passive faith. For as day’s progress, a spirit of apathy will prevail. And with hardships all around, we moan….But, “We just can’t believe.”  Yet, how many untrustworthy things do we have faith in? Man, who is proven fallible, we cling to…Yet, God who is perfect, we […]

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