I have a confession to make. I know it’s true….simply because of the discomfort I feel. As I spit out this unflattering, unChristlike, prideful rising truth…. “I am a perfectionist.” I often have this unsettled insistence that things be just perfect. In fact, when I was little….I used to go up and down the isles. Aligning boxes […]
The room sweats with suffering. And faces are mute with agitation. Agitation of the worst kind. The kind like when watching a scary movie. And you can’t run. Can’t scream. Courtroom insisting. No one leaving. Glued to the bench. Staring. Though we all want to turn away. Evidence roars like thunder, as a lightening of evidence strikes […]
Have you ever had one of those days? Like today. Call from my child’s school. Saying…..there has been a mistake. Hepatitis B. Not in records. Deleted from the computers at the clinic. Shots. Three kids. Countless foster infants. All up to date. But, they insist. So…we make a road trip. Twenty miles away. To our pediatrician. […]
You know something is wrong, when you eat chocolate for breakfast. And not just bite sized. Lady like. Hershey kisses kind of helpings. But a big, with almonds, kind of chocolate bar. Sitting. Feeling like a Shrinky Dink. Stuck inside a oven. Heat turned on. High setting. And somehow, required to grow in it. So big. […]
The lingering fumes of my neighbors garbage. Burns alongside the road. Waking me to another morn. Another day. Oh hoping. And praying. And I sit. Knees strong on the dust before me. First thing. Like Abuela taught me. Praying to a God I don’t know. Nervously caressing the dangling emblem. Abuela gave me. Strung around my […]